On long awaited… rejections

So after 2 months and 5 days, I just got word back from the agent who requested my full manuscript in February.

The rejection was nice. Good writing, really cool idea, etc.. Just not quite enough enthusiasm for the project to be its best advocate in this market. The email was encouraging about the novel’s prospects elsewhere, though, and I will definitely be sending out more queries soon.

I was fully expecting a rejection, given that this was my first round of queries on my first query-worthy project and the agent was TOP TIER. I was frankly stunned that he wanted to take a look at the partial, that he enjoyed it enough to ask for the full, and that he actually took the time to read the full. If I don’t manage to find a home for Hunters this year, I’ll likely move on to another project for a while. There’s nothing quite as bad as getting stuck in a rut… even a rut starring a super sexy, leather-clad Jaim.

But until then, I’ll still be plodding along at Hunters 2, which has been getting a major overhaul this week. One thing distance from a story does for me – even a week’s worth while my son recovered from surgery – is really show the weaknesses. This one needs more balance, the timeline is all wrong, a few of the scenes are tinny on the ear, and one plot thread gets dropped entirely from chapter 1.

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Perceptual Bias

Perceptual bias is the lens we automatically filter all of our experiences through. It makes some things seem more noteworthy than others. It guides our reactions and thoughts about what we experience, see, or feel. You cannot get entirely away from perceptual bias. Who you are, where you come from, and what you have experienced before all create that bias of perception in your mind.

Consider your emotional reaction, if any, to hearing a child scream the next aisle over in a store. If you grew up in a household that was safe and comforting, perhaps you imagine that the child has fallen and hurt himself. Imagine how your reactions and expectations in that situation would change if you grew up in a home where children were often hit, pinched, kicked, or otherwise hurt for minor behavioral infractions. Might you think the child was being abused? Perhaps as importantly, how would you react to those perceptions? These reactions, emotions, expectations, and logical (intuitive) leaps all define your personal, unique perceptual bias. How you perceive the world around you.

How is this relevant to a writer, you ask?

Point of view and perceptual bias are the same thing.

Your perceptual bias creates and defines your personal point of view.

Consider a memoir written in first person. No one would argue that the words on the page aren’t influenced by the writer’s expectations, reactions, and experiences. In the same way, each character from whose point of view you tell a story should have a perceptual bias, a unique point of view. If done well, writing from a limited point of view filters the events of story, the setting, the actions of other characters, etc, through the perceptual bias of the PoV character.

This is easier to accomplish, obviously, in a story with only one point of view character. The reader may not even notice if the author’s own biases slip through onto the page. But in a story where you have multiple point of view characters narrating, the readers will notice if the six year old street urchin sounds, acts, and reacts in the exact same ways as the pampered and sheltered queen does from her lofty throne. The urchin would notice different things, would tune out things the queen focused on and vice versa. This is a product of the character’s perceptual bias.

In order to create unique points of view for the narrating characters in a story, the author has to be aware of their own perceptual bias – and overcome it – in order to stay true to the experiences, expectations, and emotional reactions of the character.

But wait, I said you can’t get away from your perceptual bias, right?

That’s right!

Unfortunately, if you were raised to believe that people of color are dangerous, you may always have that gut reaction when seeing a person of color on the street corner. In our modern world, where we attempt to eliminate prejudice and treat all human beings as relevant and equitable, having a bias like that can be a very difficult factor to admit to oneself.

Simply becoming aware of it helps, though. As does realizing that your personal reaction to a situation may not be shared by everyone else, in their own unique perceptual bias. Further, realize that just because you were taught or have experienced some things that lead you to a perceptual bias, does not mean that every situation or person will meet that bias. Our biases, like our perceptions, can be dead wrong. It is vital that we, as writers, leave our minds open to other possibilities. Learning to question that bias, to see or at least attempt to see things from other people’s perspectives, can aid you in major ways when it comes to working with the unique, distinct points of view your richly imagined characters deserve.

What perceptual bias do you bring to the writing table? Are there any biases you carry that your writing attempts to counter?

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Unexpected occurrences

My son unexpectedly developed appendicitis Tuesday morning, and unexpectedly was rushed to surgery at 3am on Wednesday. Needless to say, my whole week may as well have been flushed after that, but as a writer, I try to use every experience to my advantage with the writing. Sometimes life events help my writing in unexpected ways.

Given the week I’ve just had (and thank Elvis it is over), I’ve been thinking a lot lately about dealing with the unexpected. There are several ways that this concept could apply to writing, in my experience. Whether it’s the story that throws you a curve ball of a revelation, or the characters who are surprised by the (generally unpleasant) twists and turns of your plot, dealing with the unexpected is part of every writer’s job.

The most difficult of the unexpected changes I’ve faced, writing the last couple of novels I’ve finished, were my own realizations. One example of the many happened when I was working on Hunters. I was in shock for a week when I realized that one of my characters was most decidedly gay (and very deeply suppressed himself). My alpha readers saw it. My subconscious must have, because when I went back to reread it, I saw clear hints of it myself. But I had no idea. This aspect of his character was completely unexpected.

At that moment, I had a choice to face. I could accept this hidden undertone in his personality and leave it unrealized and the course of the story unchanged. I could go back and scrub out ever hint of genuine personality my subconscious had given this character, and with it lose depth of meaning for who he was. Or… if done carefully, I could redefine the story with this realization in mind, play with it and see how things unfolded now that I was aware of the undertones I had written into his first few scenes.

In the end, that character, who was meant to be a walk-on Red Shirt (ie dies to motivate the really important characters), became one of the two protagonists of Hunters, not because he was gay, but because his personality had layers and depth that deserved a more prominent place in the story. And shaping his story helped me develop a much richer plot to Hunters than I had originally envisioned.

Oddly enough, adding a major GLBT element to the plot in a big way didn’t really change the themes. The themes were there all along, my themes, the ones that mattered to me when I envisioned Hunters and that still matter to me as a writer and as a person who has survived poverty, child abuse, prejudice, and lack of social acceptance.

Particularly for writers who do not use an outline, but perhaps for all writers of fiction, dealing with the unexpected is just part of the job. Yet it is how we deal with those unexpected moments that define our style, our voice, and our personal themes.

How do you deal with the unexpected? Do you bend the story to your original expectations, or roll with the changes?

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Appendices updated

Kids are so resilient. Anthony landed on the OR table at 3:30am this morning, and by 7pm he was at home, firmly ensconced in his dad’s recliner, XBox360 controller in hand and mom, dad, and grandma waiting on him hand and foot.

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Appendices

My son is in the hospital with a caseof appendicitis and will be having surgery within the hour.

Updates to follow.

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